It becomes so hard to focus on anything when depression turns worse. When I got home on Halloween I took a bit of a spiral. For three days I did not see or speak to anyone. I just curled up and that was all I could do.
Basically these past two weeks have been a sadness spiral. I can't quite break free.
I fell used, abused, and discarded by those I let close to me. By the world in general.
Nothing I do seems to work out..
I face rejection after rejection in my job hunt.
My heart hurts from other rejections.
How does one overcome this?
I am going to try to focus on the things I can control.
I can control what I eat. I can control my fitness regime.
This week these is my goal. To manage my depression but focusing on physical health.
It will be hard. When I am in a state like this I either binge eat or don't eat at all.
I don't want to move, let alone exercise.
But I will try.
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